A Sad Day

It is a sad day for me as our faithful companion for the last 4 years is now at the Humane Society awaiting adoption. Yesterday I had a lot of doubt and regret about my decision but I held onto my resolve and as of about an hour ago,the deed is done. I have to say, though there were a lot of tears, I felt a sense of peace on the way home from the shelter. And I feel a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Of course, I still feel sad and bad for Bentley. I hate that he is having to go through this and I pray that he will be adopted quickly to the perfect home for him. I will definitely be checking in with the Humane Society to see how he is adjusting and to see when/if he is adopted.

It is hard to know how Levi and Katya will adjust to his absence. I expect many questions from Katya even though I have been keeping her well informed. I am sure she will miss him. Levi of course can't vocalize his feelings. I think he will be okay as long as he gets lots of attention. I imagine he will miss his friend, though it is hard to know what a dogs mind and memory is like.

To make myself feel better, and to honor our friend Bentley I want to commit to these three things: 1.) Never again take on more pets than we can handle. 2.) Make Levi a true part of the family with lots of attention and walks (which is what any dog deserves of course. With the 2 dogs and 2 kids, it was too overwhelming and I feel they both suffered in this department). 3.) Someday, when I have time, volunteer at the Humane Society walking dogs.

This is one of those hard life moments when I really, really miss the physical presence of my family.  I am so glad they are only a phone call and/or Skype away but I really wish they were closer.  Thanks so much to my mom and sister for their support and sympathy this morning.   I love you!