Thursday, January 22, 2009

Woes and wonders

I know it is annoying to hear some one complain all the time. But it is so nice to vent about it now and then! So I apologize ahead of time and if you are not in the mood to listen to my woes, feel free to skip the next paragraph.

I am tired of being pregnant already! I did not think I would feel this way this soon. I still have a little under 3 months to go! It is not all bad; I love feeling my baby kick and squirm and I love daydreaming about what she will look like and how wonderful it will be to hold her in my arms. But I am always tired. I have insomnia; reflux; hemorrhoids; backaches (could be much worse); mood swings; nausea; food aversions; crampy uterus and headaches. Over all I just feel like it is really hard work growing a baby. Will I really want to do this again? Maybe some day. Maybe not. I had such a bad day on Tuesday; felt like garbage all day and was feeling really negative. And I felt bad about feeling bad, I mean what to I have to complain about? I don't have to work, I have the best family, a great home and my life is perfect right now. Fortunatly I had more energy yesterday and although today is not as good I am feeling much more positive.

It is wonderful to have Katya to remind me of the love and joy to come after 9 long months. Despite her being at a challenging age she is so fun. She makes me laugh everyday and comes up to me and hugs my legs or gives me a kiss. Her "no's" are really funny lately; they are loud and long, "noooooo" and have a certain inflection that is pretty cute. Yesterday she signed change diaper but as soon as I confirm "lets go change your diaper" it was "Nooooo!" and she started running off. I picked her up and in her frustration she came at me with an open mouth as if to bit my face. Of course biting is not acceptable behavior but it was so funny I could not help laugh and open my mouth back at her, which got her laughing. Here is a picture of her 'silly face' which she does when she hears or sees certain things, in this case the dogs playing.


Our prayers are with the Smith's this week, as they journy east for a new chapter in their lives. Love, Brenda

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Brenda,
This can really be a difficult time and not getting much relief from child care because Craig works so many hours compounds the problem. I wish I could be there to give you some support. You are always in our prayers. We will pray Craig gets the job he is bidding on with BPA so you can have more family time. Love you and that sweet little granddaughter of ours. Just take a lot of rest even if things have to go undone.

Love, Mom

Anonymous said...

Dear Bren,
Sounds like some tough days. Can't remember ever seeing a prettier pregnant mommy though. Lots of prayers for all four of you. Love Daddo